do you remember me >> scarlett morgan

[scarlett anne morgan]

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[scarlett anne morgan]

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I have absolutely no idea how to go about this really, but there we have it. I asked a few people and they looked at me dumb. After a while I got a response of 'just write down whatever you're feeling' and I laughed. I'd have a job. These days I don't know what's my feelings and what stems from the things I see. I find that recently these 'visions' or whatever you want to call them are getting more vivid. I don't know if that's on account of me getting more emotional or whatever, but the fact is that it scares me. I'm finding it harder and harder to work out what's what, and it's really confusing me. I go through spots of course, where I just get absolutely nothing, and my brain is mine again. But it's during these times that I worry that I'm missing out on important things that I should really see, so I find myself wishing I would see something, anything, just to let me know that everything is fine. Headaches are a common occurance these days, because I'm concentrating so hard on everything that my brain is in overdrive. I wish so much that there was a way to control it, but it's just not possible, is it? Not right now, not for me, anyway.

Let me tell you about myself, diary. Heck, maybe that would help get my feelings all in order too, if I remember who I am. Right now, as I said, everything is pretty muddled, but there are a few things that I do know. I'm a Ravenclaw, and I don't even think it's possible for that to change, and if it could, I think I would be better suited as a Hufflepuff, but that's just my opinion. I'm currently fifteen years old, although that is subject to change. I'm female, and although I hear that somehow that could change too, I don't plan on that happening at all, so that's a pretty resolute fact too. What else? I love divination, although that's probably because it's my best subject, and I can't really take credit for that fact now, can I? I find it odd that as a muggle I have a talent like seeing, but the fact is that I'm not a muggle, not really. I'm a witch. I may be muggle born, but that doesn't mean I'm a muggle, right? I suppose the fact that I'm a seer could mean that somewhere down my family tree, there were some magical family members, and it somehow got passed down, bit by bit to me. My parents certainly aren't magical, so I don't know exactly if this is true, but it's the best explination that I've got.

There, that was another thing, I come from a muggle family, and that makes me a muggle born. I was born and raised in England, or more specifically, Surry, in a lovely house, which isn't too big, but it isn't too small either. We're not fantastically rich, and I live with that, it honestly doesn't bother me too much, and my dad's a banker so it's not like we really want for anything. He's good at saving money for the bad times, and spending it during the good. It's one of his many skills. My dad's quite tall, and he's quite handsome with a very predominant jawline. His nose is slightly bent, because he broke his nose in a sport related accident when he was fourteen. He wears glasses, so that sort of hides the bent part anyway. He's got my eyes. Or rather, I suppose, I've got his. My mother, she's slightly shorter, but not real short. I get the hair from her, and her build too. She's always been able to eat loads and never show any of it, and the doctor said it was down to a fast metabolism or something, and I got that from her too, which is fantastic. She's a little more confident in herself than I am, but I suppose that comes more with age. She's very open and accepting, and she's always happy to talk to the customers at her flower store.

Well, it's not really her store, but she works there most of the time and her friend owns it and they work there together. It always smells lovely, and she'll often bring flowers back home and put them in the white vase we have on the windowsill, that mom and dad had as an anniversary present from my mother's mother. My mom's name is Rosalie, but we all call her Rosie, and comment on the irony of someone called Rosie working in a flower shop. My dad's name is Charles, but he insists upon being called Charlie by anyone other than myself and my brother, because he says that he may be a banker, but 'Charles' makes him sound like a boring old banker, and if there's a word used to describe my father, it would be far from boring. He's the one I get my sense of humour from, and my mother handed me the sarcasm, although she uses it much less now, and Dad's sort of picked up on it. My brother's already starting to grasp the concept of it, and he's not long turned five. Anyway, that's pretty much my whole family that we live close to, and that I spend every day of the holidays with, except for the odd Christmas' which I spend at Hogwarts. I do try and alternate, because I don't want to miss out on all the fun of Hogwarts Christmas feasts!

Now that you're pretty friendly with my Surry home life, I think I should go, and mull over the homework that the lovely transfiguration teacher set us. Shouldn't take too long. I dread the day that she sets me a dream diary though, it would be a colourful and enlightening read for her, and a terrible task for me to remember and write. You see, sometimes, my dreams get really emotional and muddled, and I get headaches trying to remember everything perfectly, but the fact is that if I don't remember, I could miss the whole point of the dream, and then it's as if this talent that I have, well, it would be wasted, wouldn't it?

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[scarlett anne morgan]

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alright, so this little entry next will be an odd enough one, but there we go. I wanted something to aim for, for once, and so I decided to come up with a bucket list, and seeing as I need to put it somewhere where it won't get lost, i'll put it here. It'll probably start off small, but I'll add to it, and hopefully cross a few off over time, too. Here goes.

i want to fall in love (the teenager way) i want to really fall in love. have sex. make love. make love outside. kiss someone. kiss someone until my lips are sore. have my very own dog. move out. tackle a spider problem without help. get married. be pregnant. have a baby. get a new owl. send a hateful letter to my ex boyfriend. learn to control my seer ability. meet another seer. teach my brother to climb a tree. get into trouble. have detention. neglect to do some homework because i can't be bothered. burst into song randomly. dance with a boy at a school dance. go to egypt. go to spain. go to italy. see the pyramids. cast a leg locker jynx on someone who annoys me. buy a ridiculously expensive bag. buy a new pair of converse. make a wish at every 11:11 for a week without forgetting. actually predict something about my future for once. have someone be in love with me for who i am. confide everything in my best friend, no details spared. shout, yell and scream to let every bit of anger out. do something spontaneous. take a boy home to meet the parents. laugh until my sides hurt. learn to play a song on guitar. write a poem. write a short story. write a song. meet someone famous. fall asleep in class. talk back to someone. throw a bloody good punch at someone who's annoying you. cry until i'm out of energy. tell someone that i'm head over heels in love with them, and mean every single word. fall asleep in a guy's arms. sleep outside. help out someone in need. fight the good fight. learn a random spell that doesn't really do anything helpful but amuses me. get a good job. get a great house. decorate the great house. laugh for no good reason. tell someone to 'get lost' but in much less nice words. stay up until the early hours of the morning talking. pull an all nighter. stay up all night talking with a guy (preferably the one you're in love with). pick out and try a random move from that book of positions. start a decent attempt at a scrap book. take loads of pictures of my time at hogwarts. get in touch with someone that i've lost contact with, and see what they're doing. go to italy. make a wish in the trevi fountain. stand in a coliseum. kiss a random stranger. hug a random stranger. have an illegal alcoholic drink (whilst underage). have my first legal alcoholic drink. jump around the common room randomly when i'm alone. try gelato. do something that i know i'll regret in the morning. go skinny dipping. trespass in the forbidden forest. visit america. go to chicago. go to new york. go to texas. go to los angales. have a movie marathon. eat too much popcorn for my own good. read the books mom and dad bought you for christmas. make a corporal patronus. get my owl's. get my newt's. leave hogwarts.

alright, so technically that's incomplete, but i'll keep crossing things off and adding to it as i carry this diary on. i just felt the need to have a list of things that i wanted to do and achieve in my life, and that's it, right now. that was practically all i had in mind for this entry so, yeah, bye for now!

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