[L] i will not bow

[kamilsnyder]

Kamil was in the empty class room minding his own buisness laying on a desk staring at the ceiling, feeling anything but, awsome. So he simply day dreamed about anything that popped into his head. He heard the door open and he sat up, seeing a group of Slytherin lackeys, about four or five of them, all guys. Kamil eyebrows furrowed wondering why that many guys would be here at once, it was just a classroom after all.

"Hey fag." One of the boys commented. Kamil cringed, now he knew why, they must have followed him. He should have figured they wouldn't leave him be after they had spray painted fag on alot of his property in his room, and now they were here making a grand entrance.

"Hey bastards." Kamil commented coldy. He already was flying through the air upside down as one of the boys took out his wand, he floated right infront of the kid who seemed to be the leader.

"What was that Akito?" The leader asked angrily, Kamil regonized him as Garret, some kid who had a bad rep for beating the crude out of people he didn't like. Kamil span around and then dropped to the ground, soon to be picked up by Garret, the collar of his shirt already loosing its seams."Your just disgusting." Garrett commented staring at the kid he hated the most, ontop of beating him in half his classes and being popular with alot of the girls, this guy was also friendly with some guys as well.

Kamil "Says the guy who is now going to hurt me against my will" His comeback was harsh and not even a hint of fear escaped him. Kamil flew again this time his back smacked into a desk and he sank to the ground barely able to feel his legs try to catch him.

"Make sure he has bruises for the rest of his life." The order was short but Kamil was now swarmed by the others and felt himself kicked across the ribs and he was plastered on the ground. A few heavy blows and Kamil head was already bleeding profusely and atleast one rib was severely bruised. Garret bent over him. "Now then admit your a disgusting lowlife, a fag."

Kamil sat up with his arm glaring at Garrett, he gritted his teeth as blood tripped over his eye lid."Never" that was the only word he could muster as Garrett's elbow slammed into the side of his head.

[kalebgarcia]

and i can’t use the telephone, to tell you

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THAT I’M DEAD AND GONE, SO YOU WON’T KNOW.[/font]
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Kaleb was bored. Okay, so he was beyond bored. He was so bored that not only had he done all his homework, he was on his way to a class to go and find some more work to keep him occupied. He followed the corridors idly, not thinking really about anything other than how he’d become so bored lately. He didn’t know why, but he couldn’t stop thinking about everything that had happened with Kai. He’d really hurt him, and it was no surprise that Kai didn’t want Kaleb in his life. Kaleb shrugged off the thought, as Kai was his best friend, and he didn’t want to lose him. He still loved Kai, but he just wasn’t going to let Kai know, because if this was what Kai wanted, then he’d let him have his choice. Besides, Kaleb had his chance, and he’d messed it up big time, so he was going to leave Kai be, and let him find someone who deserved to be with him. He did truly love Kai, and he was sure that he always would, but he’d never let Kai know that, unless he asked him directly, because he’d never lie to Kai, just avoid the truth, like Kai was avoiding him.

Kaleb heard words from inside this classroom, and he stopped listening. He didn’t like what they were saying, and nudged the door open a little to see who it was. He watched in silence for a moment before he realised that they were beating some kid up because he was a fag. Clearly annoyed, and unaware that the kid was in fact Kai, because he’d not heard his name being called, Kaleb pushed the door open and pushed the bully of the poor kid. ”Why don’t you pick on someone your own size. Someone who can take it, huh? I’m bisexual, you got a problem with that? Do ya? Do ya?”

[/color] Kaleb asked, advancing toward the boys and half circling them, like a shark. He was waiting for one of them to make a move, because the second they did, he’d hit them back. Kaleb extended his hand toward the boy who was on the floor, not even looking back at him. He wasn’t going to take his eyes off the assholes in front of him. ”What’s the matter? Not the right kind of man-lover for you, am I?”[/color] Kaleb asked the guys, glaring at them.

It was safe to say that he was not impressed. He hated that people would be so prejudicial to them because they loved guys. What was the problem with that? He didn’t understand. He’d got told that there was something wrong with him, but he was used to comments like that from his father, so it was really no big deal for him. He turned for a second to look at the boy, and make sure he was okay, and the second that he turned away, one of the boys connected a fist with Kaleb’s lip, causing it to split. Kale raised his fist back at the guy, turning his head back to see him, but they all ran out of the room laughing. ”Assholes”[/color] Kaleb murmured, raising his hand to his lip which was bleeding. That was nothing though, his dad had done worse. He turned once again back to the kid, opening his mouth to speak. ”Hey, are you okay?”[/color][/size][/blockquote][/justify]

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[kamilsnyder]

Kamil's head was more then spinning it was in pain, alot of pain, that blow was bad and it had hit him pretty damn hard. He heard yelling, he heard someone fighting with them, but the voice wasn't coming to him, he sat up slightly if at all, but eyes were having troubles adjusting so he sank back down until he heard the other boys run out. He heard the words and his hand searched for a a desk, he pulled himself of leaning on it, his hair plastered on his head with blood, he used his other hand to wipe the blood streaming over his eyes, Finally he looked up and knew then whos voice it was, his eyes narrowed and he smirked indignatly

"Hello love." His voice was venomously sarcastic, and very unthankful. "You might as well...have let them kill me" Kamil winced loosing his grip on the desk but regaining it quickly He stared at Kaleb through blood clotted hair."Coming out of the closet I see." He held his side as blood seeped through his shirt. He would not loose his pride, and now that he had reformed himself after his father had yelled at him and forced to join some group in the school he was going to keep his rep on the low. With Kaleb's antics he had heard about that was impossible because people traced Kaleb to Him and now he was labled as part of the whole new stream of students who liked both sexes.

[kalebgarcia]

and i can’t use the telephone, to tell you

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THAT I’M DEAD AND GONE, SO YOU WON’T KNOW.[/font]
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Kaleb cast his eyes over the boy, first checking where he was bleeding, but when he heard the words he said, Kaleb nearly choked. "Kai."

[/color] Kaleb said, unable to muster anymore words. He heard it in his voice too, the love. When he'd said Kai's name, he'd said it with love and respect, and even Zane had heard that during the Azkaban visit. Damn, he couldn't lie when he didn't expect it! He kept his eyes low on the floor and listened to what Kai said. "I..No. Death is never a way out, Kai."[/color] Kaleb said, shaking his head. He was still Kai's Kaede, but Kai just could never know it. He'd never let him know it either, as he wasn't going to mess Kai's life up again. He'd done it enough in the past. This was it.

"I came out a while back. Great hall. What, did you miss that big performance?"[/color] Kaleb asked, keeping his eyes low. He saw the blood seeping through Kai's shirt, and moved straight away, pressing his hand to where the blood was coming from. He put pressure on it to stop the bleeding. "Are you okay? I didn't know it was you."[/color] Kaleb murmured, knowing that if he had known it was Kai, he'd have kicked their ass into next year, and then made sure that they never forgot his face. He hated them for hurting Kai and wished that they had picked on Kaleb instead. He'd outted himself in front of the whole school, and no one had touched him! What was with that? It made no sense, after all he was the one who was publicly bisexual, and he’d expected punches, but he’d gotten none.

Kaleb didn’t know why, but maybe it had something to do with his father, or the fact that Kaleb was strong and would actually fight back. That probably had something to do with it, because he would always fight back, and would have then too, if those kids hadn’t run away before he had the chance. If he knew it was Kai, he’d have hit them first, but he was waiting for them to strike the first punch, and then kick his ass, and call it self defence. And the fact that he could kick ass would probably be the reason that he was left alone. Either that, or because his dad was so powerful that they left him be. He didn’t want it to be that, as he would rather take a few punches, rather than have his father save him from pain.
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[kamilsnyder]

Kamil didn't evne answer what Kaleb said, he laughed though, it was a angry laugh partly annoyed even. "The taunting started after that little tirade in the hall Kaleb...they traced me to you and decided to take their fun out on me, you should see my room its covered in purple paint, with permant words of fag and gay all over the place."It had gotten bad, not jsut paint, but words of spite, being ignored or hated, and not to mention plenty more beatings that had gone unsaid, but this one had to be the worst.

Kamil moved back as Kaleb touched him."Don't touch me Kaede!" Kamil smacked Kaleb's hand away and bit his lip realizing what he said. He moved back supporting himself on another desk. He wouldn't meet Kaleb eyes. "I can take care of myself..i didn't need your help." Kamil growled clenching his side as his muscles pulsed in pain. He didn't want to be here right now. He didn't want to be near this person, this person who had ruined his life. "When were you going to tell me about the Griffie? Kamil asked softly still not willing to look at Kaleb. He thought he could get through the rest of his life without seeing him again, but of course he couldn't that was impossible.

[kalebgarcia]

and i can’t use the telephone, to tell you

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THAT I’M DEAD AND GONE, SO YOU WON’T KNOW.[/font]
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Kaleb was hurt by the laughter, but he wasn't going to say anything as he'd deserved it. "Kamil, I'm sorry."

[/color] Kaleb murmured, forcing himself to call him by his full name. It would mean that the more he distanced himself from Kai, the easier it would be for the both of them. He hated them for hurting Kai like that, and those words, used as insults, he hated that. he hated the use of those words as if they were insults, as it was a part of who he was in a way, and he hated that people from even daring to use it as an insult. Kaleb bit back tears as he heard what Kai said. He called him Kaede. he still called him Kaede. He moved away from him, sliding down and hanging his head in his hands for a moment. His shoulders started to shake as he cried silently, but he raised his hands to his eyes and wiped away the tears, and raised his head as he heard Kai speak again. he couldn't believe that he'd been so stupid as to think that Kai may appreciate him helping him. he didn't deserve anything from Kai other than insults and hate.

He deserved every bitter smile, every word of hate, and every single thing that hurt him, and he wasn't going to retort with any comebacks. He didn't deserve the chance to defend himself. "I'm sorry. I really am"[/color] he murmured, not allowing himself to say anything else. Frankly, sorry didn't cut it after all he'd put Kai through over the time they had been together, and after all that Kai had done for him, but he knew that he'd give anything to have just one last kiss, maybe even another chance, although he'd never deserve it, as Kai had given him too much already, and he couldn't take anything else from him. Besides that, Kaleb knew that if he ever had that chance, Kai wouldn't be able to trust him, even if he knew he'd never hurt Kai again. "I was messed up. She was there for me when I broke down. She was in the room after Zane told me that he didn't want me anymore, that I was just a toy. I relied upon her for a lot, and I was sure that I loved her. I should have told you. I'm sorry, even though I know that Sorry will never cut it.[/color] Kaleb had thought that he could go through his life without seeing Kai again, that he could leave Kai alone, but of course he was wrong.[/size][/blockquote][/justify]

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[kamilsnyder]

Kamil bit his lip as he heard Kaleb crying but the anger that was bent up was to much and he ignored it. "Sorry isn't good enough anymore Kaleb, its over, your to late." Kamil shifted his eyes darkening. "Being a slytherin is the only thing I have anymore." He stood to his full height wincing at the strain. He couldn't he wouldn't trust Kaleb, not after all that had happend, not after the dman Gryffie, not after Kamil had given himself to Kaleb, no there was no room for the word "sorry".

"You did mess up Kale...you did, but I guess that doesn't matter anymore, you've chosen what you are not a slytherin even." Kamil was clenching his teeth, his hand clenching into fist."I however am." Kamil moved again, but that was it his legs gave out again and he tumbled onto his knees, he head just missing the desk. Thats when he lost it, tears spilled down his bloodied face and fell to the ground in a blood stained pool. "I hate you...I hate you..." It was all the same, kaleb was putting Kamil through what Zane had done to Kaleb, except now it was even more severe, Kalebh had who Kamil was. Kamil sobbed hopelessly leaning against the desk. He couldn't even bare to be in the same room as Kaleb.

[kalebgarcia]

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Kaleb's mouth was dry. His mouth was dry, his heart was pounding, and his lip was still dripping with blood. Damn those kids for making him bleed, as if he'd not had enough pain in the past. he could handle it all, of course, and he'd survived worse than a split lip, but that didn't make it easier, because he knew that the reason was that he liked guys too. Was that really such a crime? Honestly? Kaleb didn't get why people hated bisexuals and gay's so much. What was so bad about it? Okay so the bible said it was wrong, but the bible was out dated and half the people didn't believe in God or the bible either, so why follow by it's rules? He just couldn't understand why people hated men who liked other men so much, when women who liked other women were accepted in a heart beat. He never saw anyone hitting girls who were bisexual or lesbians, and was there really much difference between that, and the attraction that he felt to men? No. It was ridiculous. "I know it's not good enough. Nothing is good enough for you, Kai, you deserve so much better than me. And you can be yourself, Kai, it's more rewarding than you think. Being a Slytherin, it doesn't mean anything unless you become one of those robots who hate muggle born, and reject anyone different to what you're supposed to be. Like for instance, me"

[/color] Kaleb said, speaking the truth, as this was what he'd learned. Coming out, being himself around everyone, it was a challenge at first, but he felt happier now, less depressed.

"And I'm proud of it, because I've chosen to be myself, and that has brought me happiness at least, even if it is just a little bit."[/color] He hated hearing Kai talking like this, he sounded like Kaleb's dad. Kaleb moved too slow when he saw Kai fall, and missed catching him by a minute. he doubted that he'd want Kale to touch him anyway, especially if he was trying to help him. "I hate me too, for doing this to you."[/color] Kaleb murmured, moving back against the desk that he was sat by a moment ago. He wanted to hold Kai, tell him it would be alright, but he couldn't. The best chance he had for Kai to be happy was to let him know all the options, make sure that he was making the best choice for him, and not for his father. Because there was a time that Kaleb had based everything he'd done, every decision that he made around dear old daddy, just to get his attention, to gain his love, or to make him proud, and he hated that Kai was falling into the same trap. He needed to break free, be his own person, and put the past behind him so that he could move on with his life, whether he had Kaleb in his life or not. And Kaleb was sure that Kai would never want him in his life again. He heard him sobbing and couldn't let him be. Even if Kai punched him, he had to at least try to help him. He moved over to where Kai was and put his arms around Kai, holding him whilst he cried, and Kaleb started to cry too. "I thought you'd never have to see me again. I'm sorry"[/color] Kaleb whispered, shaking.[/size][/blockquote][/justify]

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Kamil listend, he just listned, unable to say anything because of course Kaleb was right, that made sense, god that was what Kamil believed, muggles, mudbloods, whatever they were, they could do anything, no matter if they could do magic or not. He belived that will all his soul. He knew how much he was hurting Kaleb, and when he heard that he deserved better he said told himself that wasn't true under his breath, he knew that Kaleb was perfect for him, but, he didn't want to trust him, he didn't want to end up being hurt, again.


Kamil was still on his knees and trying to stop[ himself from blubbering but it wasn't working. Then he felt Kaleb's arms around him and his breathe caught in his throat making him choke. He shifted looking at Kaleb, he frowned slighty, but he couldn't help it, his body told him just to give Kaleb another chance. Kamil's hand, went to Kaleb's face, and he didn't evne hesitate, it was a desperate and rough kiss on his part. Why was he doing this? How could he just let himself trust, Kaleb of all people? Because Kamil jsut didn't give up on people, he tried not to, even if he ended up getting hurt. He had changed drastically. His lips disconnected from Kaleb's moments after and dropped to his neck kissing around fade bruises.

Kamil was doing it again. he was falling into that hole of were he was thinking it through, he was going to make another mistake and be permantly broken, but he didn't care, he needed someone around him. So he would fall if he had too.

[kalebgarcia]

and i can’t use the telephone, to tell you

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Kaleb didn't know why he'd said all of that. He should have made Kai hate him more, he should have added to it, not tried to make him give Kaleb another chance. He couldn't let himself hurt Kai, he just wouldn't be able to live with it, not if he'd done it again. If he hurt Kai again, Merlin he would probably kill himself rather than live with that guilt, as he hated himself already for what he'd done. And every word he said, though he regretted saying it because it may make Kai see him differently, was true. He knew that Kai did deserve better, and he wished that one day Kai would find that person who was perfect for him, and they’d learn to treat Kai right, give Kai what he deserved, and be the person that Kai would always be able to rely on. That was what Kai deserved.

Kaleb wrapped his arms around Kai carefully, and hoped that he wouldn't push Kaleb away, although he'd understand if he did. But when he saw Kai looking at him, he had a look on his face that Kaleb couldn't describe. He was frowning, thinking, maybe. He felt Kai's lips on his, desperate, rough, maybe searching, and Kaleb kissed back, unable to believe that this was happening. He was crazy, he was imagining things, because Kai would never do this, not again, would he? He knew he should stop Kai, make him see that Kaleb, although he had changed, there was always that risk that he'd hurt him again, even though he didn't want to do that. Kaleb's breath caught loudly in his throat, as Kai's lips found the bruises on his neck, the ones from his father.

Kaleb's arms dropped to Kai's waist, carefully, as he knew he was hurt there. "Kai, Kai, are you sure?"

[/color] He asked, making sure that Kai was thinking this through because he wasn't allowing Kai to make a mistake again. He’d been down that road before, and it had cost Kai a whole lot, so he wasn’t going to allow him to venture down there again without thinking, encase there was the same result. Kaleb sat down on the floor, his back leaning against a desk, and he pulled Kai onto his lap gently, burying kisses in Kai’s hair, over Kai’s eyes, and onto Kai’s lips finally, before releasing his lips again. Kale tugged up Kai’s shirt a little and his eyes inspected the bruising that had been caused. He swore under his breath, and then dropped a few kisses onto the bruises that he could see.[/size][/blockquote][/justify]

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It was stupid, Kamil knew that he was aware of how dumb he was being, but it was to late, He heard the concern in Kaleb's voice and he knew that Kaleb wanted to be sure. Kamil just his around Kaleb's neck, his breath catching again as Kaleb touched his bruises, god they hurt, really hurt.

There was a yell, but, not a normal one. Kamil let go his head shooting for the door. It came again, and this one sounded agonizing.

"Please, i told you everything just don't hurt him anymore." Kamil's body shifted at that voice, he knew that voice.

"Why should we?Now that we know? Or do you want to take the beating." The voice was Garrett's Kamil knew that, it made him flinch back into Kaleb.

Kamil could hear a body slam against the door, and sickening thuds against the wood. He shifted making himself get up. The sound of something hard against the door sounded again. He could hear laughing and taunting. There was another yell, this one fainter but in just as much pain. "Kaleb...that voice..it..was Josh's."

More laughter, and then it began to fade away as Garrett and his lackeys left. Kamil looked from Kaleb to the door. On the other side it was indeed Josh, he layed in a heap on the floor, gashes across his arm and neck from a wand. He barely moved his breathing shallow and ueven. His back was stripped of his shirt and writting on his back was the word "fag'.

The reason? He had told the boys about Kamil ,it was his fault, he had wanted to make them stop hurting him, so he told them about Kamil, but after he heard about what they were doing he had went to stop them, and now this is were he ended up. He had become the new toy of their jokes. He was an idiot and a coward and he just couldn't help but hate himself.